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Life By Illusion

by Horror

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We are so self aware, self amused Cherishing things that don’t mean anything All so we can prove we’re better than each other So we can prove that we’re stronger, smarter, more spiritual Savages, running wild in a world of animals We strive to be more, strive to be better But we’re just the same, a speck in a world of nothing I too once thought we would prevail But I now see, that will never be Everyday I apologize for humanity’s follies Everyday I grow a little more embarrassed to call myself human Maybe I am the beginning of the next evolution A human that does not want to be human….
2.
It's always the blacksmith that wants to tell the dancer how to step. The butcher that wants to tell the chef how to cook. People. Humans. No..., animals. Beating their chests filled with self righteous air. We are all bigger than somebody else. The key is to find who you are bigger than. And make sure you let them know it. You can make people believe almost anything when you are in a position of power. Then they will defend everything you've taught them as if it was truth. Even if it defies logic, or goes against everything that is real. This is what we are up against. This is where we lose. This is how we die.
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Everyone loves to play the saint Until a sacrifice is needed People hiding behind fear and propaganda Is it so important for you to live that you’re willing to let everyone else die? What makes you so important? Why do you see yourself as pertinent to the continuation of humanity? You fucking cowards
4.
We’ll kill for it We’ll die for it We’ll make sure we cry for it We’ll work for it We’ll lie for it We’ll fucking starve ourselves for it You do everything you can to receive These little pieces of paper They validate you They make you happy They make you suffer They make you wish you weren’t under It tells you who you are Where you are And what you can be In the end it’s just a symbol But for some reason it always seems that everyone forgets And symbolism becomes everything…
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There’s no one in the world I care about more I’d kill you and throw you away just to save myself Do you think I love you? Do you think I’d do anything to help you? If you do, then you’re even dumber than I thought I hate everyone including myself But I at least hate myself less, so I choose… I, myself, me I, myself, me I, myself, me I, myself, me I, myself, me I, myself, me Disgusting, yet at least familiar
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Cell 04:38
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Eventually you have to take responsibility for your actions It can’t always be someone else’s fault You whine and complain as if You’re the only one who has gone through misery You act as if somehow the odds are stacked against you As if you can’t take it upon yourself to do anything Ironically, that is your weakness You’re so convinced you have no power That you’ll never even try The thing hurting you the most Is your own preconceived notions About yourself and others
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No one understands what I am I’m not even sure what I am Am I from another planet? World? Universe? Time period? No; I am here, I am now But I am not human Can you deny what you are? What you’ve become? Can you say something isn’t what it is? That something is what it isn’t? Maybe. Maybe not. But if they can say they are what they are not. Then why can’t I? I’m a being...trapped in a human body No one understands what I am I’m not even sure what I am Can you deny what you are? What you’ve become? Can you say something isn’t what it is? That something is not what it isn’t? Maybe. Maybe not. But if they can say they are what they are not. Then why can’t I?
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They just make you think you have a choice That you have some sort of effect on the outcome You are nothing, we are all nothing Just playing by their rules, their game They need us and we need them But we’re tricked into thinking we need them more
10.
The Speech 03:25
You tell yourself you’re not good enough That you’re incapable A weakling compared to those you surround yourself with But you have no idea what you could do If you just didn’t play the victim Didn’t give in to your own lies The world isn’t a place you live in because it’s your choice That we can all agree But that doesn’t mean you have to accept failure as a normality Even as your life feels pointless and daunting Everyday is the same in some way And you feel further away from humanity as ever But there’s still always that will for whatever reason Instinct, if you will. Let it take hold, for instinct is the only thing that keeps us going in times of uncertainty.
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You’ll never understand yourself Or the others around you If you can barely understand your own motives How could you even begin to think of what others are thinking, planning, doing When you have no grasp of your own thoughts You’ll never understand yourself Or the others around you If you can barely understand your own motives How could you even begin to think of what others are thinking, planning, doing When you have no grasp of your own thoughts
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False 02:45
No. That’s just not true. I cannot dignify that with a valid response. It’s just too hard to explain to someone like you. I will not accept your premise or your opinion. When it is false.
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Somehow we’re the ones that’re supposed to help When we have nothing compared to them Somehow we’re the ones that’re supposed to make change When they have it all How can I make a difference When you have all the cards? How can I help someone When you own them? Fuck you and your conscious Where did it get you while they raped us all The responsibility lies on those that don’t have While those that have watch
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Grimness 05:20
Even though I’m “human” Humanity is the cause of everything wrong I guess I’m just as much a part of the problem I’m not innocent, I’m a disgrace to humanity Just like the rest of you I’m so fucking dark, grim You’ll never be where my mind is Thinking the things I think Feeling the way I feel I only wish you knew what it felt like I’m disgusted by my own will My own ambition I want them all away from me Their smell, their faces It makes me want to leave, want to die Get away from me you monsters How disgusting can you be?
15.
Devoid of any life I struggle To continue walking To continue breathing When nothing has no meaning Where will I go afterwards? Why does it matter? I know I’ll be happier anyways I cry for myself and everyone who has to live life
16.
Why am I going through this? This isn’t my life This is not how it’s supposed to be If I knew this is what life would be like I would have just chosen to never be born Something so simple, so meaningful and meaningless I cringe at the thought of living a second life When it ends, I hope I don’t have to start again Because I don’t think I could handle another one And starting over has never been enticing anyways
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As much as we want to feel like we have a choice Like we can create our own path It’s really all a matter of chance A throw of the die Your life can end right now With just a throw of the die How ironic that our lives are so fickle, so weak You could die, with just the throw of a die And yet we don’t like to think of it that way We like to pretend there’s a plan Like there’s someone out there looking for us Who’s bigger than life itself A plan out there, that’s bigger than life itself I see it otherwise
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We’re so obsessed with where we’re going to be But in the end all that matters is where you are Where you are determines what you’re going to do next The future doesn’t affect the past See where you are now, and react to the current situation To plan for what’s ahead is futile Life is an ever changing board With no wrong or right turns We’re so obsessed with where we’re going to be But in the end all that matters is where you are Where you are determines what you’re going to do next The future doesn’t affect the past See where you are now, and react to the current situation To plan for what’s ahead is futile Life is an ever changing board With no wrong or right turns

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The 10th Horror release. The longest running time of any Horror release at over an hour of music across 18 tracks.

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released October 31, 2017

Christopher "Horror" Ferreira - Vocals, Guitars, Composition, Lyrics, Production.

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A New York City based solo act achieving an almost impossible mixture, of genres. Horror manages to blend the disgusting brutality of death metal, the emotional darkness of black metal and the improvised nature of jazz and fusion. Every Horror recording is preformed on the spot with little to no preparation. Whether "Abstract Metal" or "Gray Metal". It's brutal, progressive, dark, yet thoughtful.. ... more

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